closing the book

Thursday February 11th 2016

I am leaving for Enota Mountain Retreat in three days.

I find I am feeling somewhat melancholy with the realization that I am closing yet another book in my life.  I have had many many experiences, lessons.. sadness in my latest book.  Each of those experiences were chapters within.  I have now completed the book and time to close it.. tie a ribbon around it and set it aside.

This, right now, brings tears to my eyes as I write this.  I realize that it is a death.  A death of those that were a part of that book.  They will be left behind.  It is sad.  Really really sad.

I felt a tugging within immediately this morning to write this so I can leave it all behind.  I am pausing with each sentence and placing my Kleenex to my eyes.. wiping away the tears that are flowing and flowing.  I cannot control it.  Nor, do I want to.  I am releasing the grief of knowing it is done… dead.

Writing this is helping me to form my inner words of respect for what the gifts were that I was given.  I am grateful.  Oh you have no idea how grateful I am for that book which was given to me and I am thankful that I had the courage to open it.

So… onward I will go.