CLOSING THE BOOK
Thursday February 11th 2016
I am leaving for Enota Mountain Retreat in three days.
I find I am feeling somewhat melancholy with the realization that I am closing yet another book in my life. I have had many many experiences, lessons.. sadness in my latest book. Each of those experiences were chapters within. I have now completed the book and time to close it.. tie a ribbon around it and set it aside.
This, right now, brings tears to my eyes as I write this. I realize that it is a death. A death of those that were a part of that book. They will be left behind. It is sad. Really really sad.
I felt a tugging within immediately this morning to write this so I can leave it all behind. I am pausing with each sentence and placing my Kleenex to my eyes.. wiping away the tears that are flowing and flowing. I cannot control it. Nor, do I want to. I am releasing the grief of knowing it is done… dead.
Writing this is helping me to form my inner words of respect for what the gifts were that I was given. I am grateful. Oh you have no idea how grateful I am for that book which was given to me and I am thankful that I had the courage to open it.
So… onward I will go.