At the age of 62, I often just sit and think about my life. I think about how blessed I am. I have had many.. many experiences. I have kept many of them… ‘secret’. Why? Because I don’t think people will believe me and what all I have experienced. They are so crazy-wild.. I thought, felt, others would think I am a grand liar!
Well, I am not a liar. And I have decided it is time to speak openly.. speak my truth.
I will not list it all.. all that I have experienced.. you would have no choice but to roll your eyes and say within: “yeah…. RIGHT”.
Instead, I will use just one.
I dropped out of school at the age of 16. I was pregnant. This was in 1971.. not as accepted to continue on with school and be pregnant. So, I was outta there and got married.
I am not going to detail all of that at all.. even though, the marriage, children I had and the end of the marriage created a CRATER within. It is what I did later that is my message.
I waitress-ed and bar-tended for years.. having no education.. it seemed to be my only choice. One evening, I was bar-tending in this really popular nightclub with live music and suddenly I felt as though God took a sledge hammer and slammed it over my head. At that very instant, I quit serving drinks and found the manager. I told him I am quitting.. he asked: “When?” I said “NOW” and I walked out. I didn’t plan any any of it.. it just happened. My inner voice SCREAMED at me and I FINALLY LISTENED.
So.. I decided to go to college. I worked first at getting my GED and completed it. I went to the local Technical College, got financial help and signed up full time. I didn’t know what I wanted to ‘BE’… but computers at that time, which was 1982, were UP AND COMING! So, I decided to jump on that band wagon.
I discovered how much I LOVE TO LEARN! I studied soooo hard.. and I had BIG fun! I learned to program in COBOL, BASIC programming and RPG. I loved it – loved it.!!!
In 1984, I graduated with HONORS!!!! Yep.. I DID IT.
That is all I want to say about it but, that is not why I wrote this. I wrote this to express to ALL that anyone can do ANYTHING.. ANYTHING!!!!!
You just have to completely soulfully want it. THERE IS ALWAYS A WAY!!!
My biggest point is this:
“GOD DID NOT CREATE US AND ASSIGN SPECIAL KNOWLEDGE.. GIFTS TO EACH. HE DID NOT SAY: ‘SUSIE WILL BE A SCIENTIST’.. ‘BOBBY WILL ONLY BE POOR AND HOMELESS’. WOULD GOD DO SUCH A THING????”
I think I’ll leave it at that.